He tells me about the lady bug.
Says that’s the only thing he remembers,
But I think he remembers the tears too
And the pain.
But these things are too hard for him to describe,
So he just goes on
About the elegant nature of the lady
In her red satin gown
Dotted with black pearls.
She waved a farewell to him
With her languid arms
And disappeared into the night sky.
It’s funny how omens are beautiful
Before we know what comes next
And they stick around in our minds long after
Everything else has gone.
He smiles when he tells me about her
But it’s bittersweet
And laced with regret.
He doesn’t look at me;
Instead, stares off into space
No doubt seeing her.
“I remember you,”
He tells the majestic lady.
“You were everywhere that day.
I saw your dress trailing the leaves
In the sun, you were on fire.
You were so beautiful.
Everything else was wrong.
But you were still so beautiful.”
I assume she simply waves at him and flies away
Like she did then.
Because she is only a memory.
I wonder if he will ever see her again
In that beautiful light of before
Or if she has become a house
For the aching in his chest
And the hollowness in his bones.
Tell me, what was the best day of your life?
Hesitating much? It’s not so easy, is it?
But when you do find that day. That hour. That minute. Perhaps even that second.
And you will find it because it will haunt you until you do.
You’ll find it wasn’t quite extraordinary.
Maybe you threw off your shoes and ran through the grass on the first real day of spring.
Maybe you stood there as the heavens opened and the rains poured down on you. And you danced. With your friends. The water soaking through your sorrows. Cleansing you of pain and worry.
Maybe you took cover from the storm in a playground tunnel. And you all smiled at the little kid who peeked in and giggled. And you wiggled your toes at him in response.
I thought you’d like to know it’s snowing,
That the feathery flakes touch upon my eyelashes,
That I suck in the biting air,
That it swirls and descends swiftly from the white veil of heaven,
That it lands softly on my golden curls and melts into my tears.
You always said you wanted to live,
To feel the whirling wind surging,
Feathery cotton embedding itself in your ears,
Smiles dancing and gazing upward.
It’s so beautiful;
You’ll see it soon.
I’m worried you’ll miss the snow.
The powdery flurries are vanishing.
My rosy cheeks are dry by now.
Where are your brown eyes reflecting it all?